Tuesday was not a
good day. In fact, it was a bad day; not the worst, but still, all things
considered, beyond disappointing and approaching depressing. The details of why
this was so don’t really matter to my point. You have had, and may be having
one of those days right now, and you certainly will in the future. Generally,
the badness of Tuesday involved people I love, the denomination I belong to,
and the nation in which I live.
Beyond just
wanting such a day to be over, the other key feature of such a day is wondering
where in the world God is hiding and what in the world God is up to in my life,
the life of those I love and in the battle against evil in this world.
The questions are the oldest ones facing humanity once we got past the point of
figuring out food and fire, and maybe the wheel and how to sharpen stones. If
you read the forever relevant book of Job you will see all of these questions
and more, and you will see the suggestion that it might be better to just deny,
or at least abandon one’s faith in God when confronted with the overwhelming
sense of defeat. So, I went to bed feeling despondent, without hope.
Wednesday morning
I awoke and I had to decide whether I could engage God in my morning
prayers. It was not as hard as I thought it would be. God allowed me to
vent a bit, and then a strange sense of calm, the budding of hope, began to
take over my mind. God was still speaking to me. In the shower (not a sight you
want to visualize, but important to the story) I started to think of something
to sing, which is a sure elixir of hope. My mind settled on an old
theatre audition piece:
When
you're down and out
Lift up your head and shout
There's gonna be a great day
Angels in the sky
Promise that by and by
There's gonna be a great day… (Barbra
Streisand, “(It’s Gonna Be) A Great Day”)
Which reminded me of this prophetic word:
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior. (Habakkuk
3:17-18)
Wednesday was
better than Tuesday. Some days that is sufficient.